Hey Sweetie  / Eshie

Angel,

The other day in English class, we were all to choose a time in the past or the present so we could either go back in time or go into the future on a time travel. When our teacher assigned us this project, seeing you popped into my head and I thought "I'm gonna write about Angel!" It was the perfect thing to write about.

 

 My Trip to the Past

If I were to be chosen to go on the Time-Travel Journey, I would pick to go to the past. I would go back to March 28th, 2007. I picked this date because I regret not going to see my niece at the hospital the day she was born into eternal life. I wish I could’ve been there to kiss her goodbye. Everyone says that it would’ve been harder for me to deal with her death if I would’ve gone to the hospital to see her, but I don’t think that that’s true. I think it would’ve made it a little easier because now I beat myself up everyday for not going. I know she’s looking after me and everything I do but I just wish I could see her. I think about her with every minute that passes by. It’s so hard to know now that I didn’t go see her that I wont be able to see her until my name is called. If I could do anything to go back in time to see her, I would do it. My life will always be incomplete just knowing that I made the mistake of not going to see her. Thank you for taking your time to read this. Hopefully, I’ll get my wish! If not, I love you Angel Brook and I’ll be seeing you. 





I love you && miss you with everyday that passes by.

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Happy 6 Months Sweetie!  / Auntie Ishie

Angel,
  These six months have gone by so fast, it's incredible how time flys by. Yesterday, I knew you were with me all day. First your mommy called me and told me to check my e-mails so I did and I listened to the conversation between that phsycic and your Auntie Sarah and when the phsycic said that you are with us and you're ok, i started to cry with tears of joy, I'm so happy to know that you are ok and you're watching over me. After that, I went to the Parker football game and they released balloons and I told my friend, Heather that they were going to you and i felt as if you could hear me. 
  In my English class, we were assigned to find a poem and rehearse it in front of the class and I came across this poem called, 'Eternity' and it reminded me so much of you.

Eternity

I lie in bed at night and pray,
that you will think of me.
I cry until my eyelids close,
and dream- eternity


I wake to sunlight on my face, 
for a moment I forget.
Then a cloud passes by,
and I realize, this is it.


I carry on throughout the day,
feigning joy, and feeling pain.
I long to gaze upon your face,
and share a smile, an embrace.


The day is drawing to an end,
and still I think of you.
I try to relax, yet in my mind,
I wonder what to do.


So now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord, my soul will keep.
And should you chance to think of me,
know that I love you- eternally

Deiah Haddock
 

I love you baby girl...
Eternally!! 

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Happy 6th month baby girl  / Your Mommy

Today you would have been 6 months old and what a day it has been so far. I was doing the dishes this morning and listening to the radio. They had on a psychic and were taking callers for readings. The first caller wanted to know about her love life and then the psychic started talking about a death. The caller said yes my sister’s baby just died a few months ago. She then talked about a special song the baby’s mom always played (the song on Angel’s site). She wanted to let the family all know that she was with them and she is ok. Then I got a phone call and it was my sister. She was the women that wanted to know about her love life and the little girl trying to get through was my daughter Angel Brook. Wow thank you so much Angel that meant so much to me and your whole family to know that you are with us and that you are ok. We ALL love you so much and we do see the signs you leave to let us know you are with us. It just feels good to know that you are the one behind all the feathers. I love you baby girl and I miss you so much.

After my sister called to let me know that was her I e-mailed the radio station and thanked them all for getting through to Angel and then asked for a copy of the audio. They did read my letter on air and send me a copy. They are so awesome. I put the audio on the site and it is under video & audio if you would like to listen.

After I got the audio, my father in law showed up at my house and gave me a bunch of Angel garden sticks. I could not believe it. Thank you so much. What a happy 6 month anniversary. I love you so much Angel, Love mommy

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I see you everywhere I go  / Ishie
Angel,

   Wow, it's been more than 5 months since you've left us.
Here on Earth kids seem to grow up so fast, but with you being gone, it seems like you've grown up faster than the speed of lightening. I miss you so much. It's so hard knowing that I won't be able to see you until God calls my name. 
   Everytime I go visit yer mommy, daddy && your brothers, I always walk into Ethan's room and imagine you sleeping in your crib in his room. I always look at the knick-knacks that your mommy and other family members have bought in memory of you and sweetie, you are loved by so many people.
   I love you && Miss you so much sweetie.

Keep throwing me those pennies ; ]

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Just thinking about you & your special Angel...  / Emma -. Nevaeh Angel Prince-Fraser's Mummy (Love for this special angel xo )
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Keepin u n my heat  / Traci Barnai (mommy 2 vanessa )

Hey sweet baby girl,always keepin u n my heart,

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Five Months  / Your Mommy
You would be 5 months old now.  This makes me sad.  All I can think about is all the things you would be doing and how our whole family's life would be a little different with you, a little girl in our house.  Mommy would'nt be the only girl.  I feel lonley without you in a house full of boys.  I know that your brother Austin misses you so much.  He talks to you and about you all the time.  I think that helps me to grieve knowing that I have someone to grieve with.  We will sometimes sit down and just talk about you and what you would be like.  We think you would be so beautiful and such a good sister to your brothers.  At five months old if you are anything like your brothers you would be rolling all around the house, starting to scoot.  Your newborn/baby stage would almost be over.  When your brothers could get around all on there own I rarely was able to cuddle with them anymore.  They were my little indipendent boys.  This is how I think you might be.  I talk to you all the time and I hope you can hear me.  I know I am supposed to think that you can and that you are safe and that its a better place, but when I am here on earth I some times wonder if thats really true.  I guess to stay sane I just have to BELIEVE.  Sometimes its hard to do when it is one of my own children and I can't do anything for you.  I love you and that is all I can do. I can love you and always keep your spirit alive and memories alive in the ones that care and love tyou to.  I hope you have a happy five month birthday and I will be thinking about you.  Love your mommy, forever and eternity.   Close

i know how u feel...  / Daniella Lopez (friend)
i too lost my baby...he was born in march 23 and died in june 13 of this year and i just want u to know that they are happy and peacful now and know it's hard i cry every day for my dionel but thats life god needed and angel and chose them we must wait to see them again...ur baby girl angel wants u to know something so i wrote it here for u ok...
Mom,
Please don't cry too long, I know you are sad I'm gone. Your heart is broken and filled with pain, but don't you know you will see me again? But this time I'll be beautiful and whole, no flesh and blood, but a heavenly soul. If you could see me now you would not shed a tear, but smile in anticipation for the day you'd join me here. There's no sorrow, no crime, no sickness, no pain, no war, no labor, no death or rain. There's no hate, no fear, no devil or sin, nothing evil or bad can get in. The streets are gold, the lighting is bright, the sun forever shines, there is no night. Angels sing without a hault or pause, they just sing and praise, there is no time and no such thing as days. And trust me I'm not alone! There are so many Baby Angels here, we play and play and play, oh dear! And best of all Jesus comes to visit us often, we can go talk to God face to face! And when I talked to Him when I arrived, I felt His amazing grace. He told me not to worry about my family at home and that I'm always with you even though I'm gone. I said but if, I'm here, God, how can that be? He said that I'm in your mind, your soul and your sweet memories. Goodbye for now, grieve normally and cry if you must. God knows what's best and in Him you must trust. 

god bless u and ur family

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An Angel by Your Side  / Nancy (Tracys Mom)
May You Always Have
An Angel by Your Side

“May you always have an angel by your side
Watching out for you in all things you do
Reminding you to keep believing in brighter days
Finding ways for your wishes and dreams to come true 

Giving you hope that is as certain as the sun
Giving you the strength of serenity as your guide
May you always have love and comfort and courage
And may you always have an angel by your side 

Someone there to catch you if you fall
Encouraging your dreams
Inspiring your happiness 

Holding your hand and helping you through it all
In all of our days, our lives are always changing
Tears come along as well as smiles
Along the roads you travel, may the miles be a thousand times more lovely than lonely 

May they give you gifts that never, ever end: someone wonderful to love and a dear friend in whom you can confide
May you have rainbows after every storm
May you have hopes to keep you warm 

And may you always have an angel by your side”

-Douglas Pagels 
                                              
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With Love  / Eshie
We Thought of You With Love Today

We thought of you with love today,
but that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
and days before that too.

We think of you in silence,
we often speak your name;
All we have now are memories,
and your picture in a frame.

Your memory is our keepsake,
with which we will never part;
God has you in his keep,
we have you in our heart.

It broke our heart to lose you.
But you didn't go alone,
For a part of us went with you...
the day God took you home.

~Author Unknown~ 



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When God Calls Little Angels  / Eshie

 When God Calls Little Angels 

When God calls little Angels to dwell with Him above
We mortals sometime question the wisdom of His love,
For no heartache compares with the death of one small child,
Who does so much to make our world seem wonderful and mild.
Perhaps God tires of calling the aged to his fold.
So he picks a rose bud, before it can grow old.
God knows how much we need them, and so He takes but a few,
To make the land of Heaven more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult, still somehow we must try.
The saddest word mankind knows, will always be "goodbye".
So when a little child departs, we who are left behind
Must realize God loves children & angels are hard to find.

~Author Unknown~

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Mommy Stories  / Nancy (Tracy's Mom)
Dear Alisha,
           I know you are hurting & it's still early on this journey of loss & grief. I'm so sorry that you & Adam have to go through this pain.

Today while I was visiting Tracy's site I read a post where I said we would tell "Tracy" stories to the kids to help them know who their Aunt Tracy was. 

"Angel Brook" knows her mommy's & daddy's voices she heard them all the time, she will recognize them when you talk to her now. And she has Tracy to tell her wonderful stories about her mommy...Tracy was a good listener so she will have a lot of stories to share. I know she will tell Angel what a great mommy you are to her brothers, Austin & Ethan. 

Alisha hold on tight to your love for your precious "Angel Brook" she will comfort you & help you to go on. 

gentle hugs,
   Nancy
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so sorry  / Crystal Boyanski (friend)
I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter. I thank you for you comment about my boys. I know how hard it is and it always hurts to see someone else have to live through the loss of their child. Just know your baby is an angel and she is with my boys in heaven. I will pray for you and your family and God bless you all Close

Angel Brook  / Eshie
Hey Sweety.
I miss you. 
You'd be a day old today & it just hurts so bad to know that .

Did you have fun camping??
I'm sure your mommy enjoyed you being there with her.
I wish I would've went with. 
Then I could be with you.

It doesn't even seem real that you're gone.
Everybody tells me that you're with me no matter what.
I know that you are but it's just the fact that I can't see that you're with me && that just makes me so sad .
But the day is going to come where I will be able to see you.
&& I might be old or I might be young when that time comes but I can guarentee you, that NO MATTER WHAT, I will never forget you.

Everyone misses you terribly & that is never going to change.
You are so special in so many ways.

I love you so much Sweety. 

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Angel's Due Date  / Your Mommy
Hi my sweet baby girl.  Today it the day you were to come into this world.  It has been so hard.  This is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with.  Today we got back from our camping trip, and we brought your urn.  You went to the beach with us, watched the stars, sleep in our tent, and sat by the campfire.  I am so glad I brought a piece of you with us.  It helped a lot.  One night at camp Auntie Amber surprised mommy and took me to the beach and showed me she wrote ANGEL in the sand with rocks.  It was so sweet.  Your brother Austin kind of let me in on the surprise early though.   He's so cute.  Last night everyone was going up to see the stars and I went along with Austin.  Adams mom, sister Amber, uncle sam, aunt Mary and Justin all surprised me by lighting candels for Angel.  We all sat up on the hill at the campground and all lite these candles in memory of our beautiful Angel Brook.  It was so pretty.  That meant a lot to me and I am thankful they did that on the eve of her due date. I love you Angel and I will always for the rest of my life think about you and wish you were still with me.  I feel like I lost a piece of my heart the minute I found out you died. My heart broke.  The more I talk about you and think about you, I thinks helps me grieve.  I love you and so does your entire family.  You are my little Angel.  Love you sweety, Love Mommy Close

For Angel xoxo  / Emma -. Nevaehs Angel Prince-Fraser's Mummy (Love for this special angel xo )
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Thinking of you  / Nancy (friend)
                          

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Something's I made for you which I think is really cute xoxo  / Emma Prince (Love for this special angel xo )
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July 4th  / Rosemary Sis Of Alvin Cremeans

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Angel... / Eshie

Angel,
      Time just flys by so fast. Its been three months already, it seems like it was just yesterday that I got the news that your mommy was pregnant with you. I was so excited. It hurt to know that you were going to be my first neice. I imagined pushing you in the baby swings at the park like I had done with your brothers or took you on a walk in the stroller on a beautiful summer day or spoiling you with toys, holding you in my arms, feeding you a bottle && rocking you to sleep & just holding you, giving you a kiss when you got 'a boo boo' and just watching you grow. I know that God took you for a reason, I'm not sure what that reason it but I know that you are in good hands. I love you & miss you tons. I will never forget you, you will be in my heart always & forever. 

Here is a poem that I found that will help show what I am feeling:
From the book, Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul on Tough Stuff
                      I Wonder as I Wander

I wonder as I wander
Out under the sky
Why do people I care about
Always have to die?

Are you happy where you are,
Wherever that may be?
I wonder as I wander,
Do you still think of me?

Is it nice up there in Heaven?
For I know you made it there.
Are the clouds made out of marshmallows?
Do you know that I still care?

I look up at the winter sky,
And shed a single tear.
I think of all the days gone by,
I'll always hold you dear.

I wonder as I wander 
Out under the sky
Why do people I care about
Always have to die?

                                                 Hilary Begleiter

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